I have been a little on the crazy side of life these past few weeks. For those who didn't know, Mickey and I had been expecting our 4th miracle. At our first appointment at 7 weeks, we were told that we had an anembryonic pregnancy (blighted ovum). We were so sad and since I had never had a miscarriage before, I was scared to say the least. We had to return a week later for a repeat ultrasound and if the same results were found I would have a D and C 2 days later. After the second ultrasound and the same results were found, we had to tell the kids. We chose to tell them with gospel principles and they took it very well. Beth was the most upset while Jacob just said, dang. Such a boy!
The d&c wasn't too bad except that they did the d&c on the L&D floor at the hospital. When I am scared about something, I have a "no think" policy. My family laughs at me but it helps me out. I have done it since I was a kid. So, the night before, the kids went to their Aunt Canette's house for a sleepover. Then Mickey and I went out to dinner at PF Changs. We then went to see Get Smart...which was very funny! And to top it off, we hit Maggie Moo's for some ice cream before my midnight deadline of no more food. Mickey would have enjoyed going to bed a little earlier than we did, since we had to leave our house at 5:00 am. But he humored me and made it very easy on me. I didn't think about the procedure at all that night. Works like a charm every time! I am still recovering physically and mentally but for the most part, I feel good.
During all of this, I received a new calling. I have learned that my time is definitely not my Heavenly Father's time. I have loved serving in my primary calling. But my time is now to be spent with the young women. I was looking over the roles and realized that I had the current laurels when they were beehives and I had the current beehives when I served as the activity day leader.
I have a week with the YW, and then I am going to my parents for a month! This trip has been planned for 6 months...again, not my time! I was only supposed to be gone for 3 weeks but 2 months ago, Mickey told me that I should leave earlier since his work schedule will be crazy for July. I have asked my counselors for forgiveness already. :)